A Saphire To Love

Baby Due
September 15, 2008

I am happy so many of you "got it". When we found out we were having another baby, I think we were both shocked and a little nervous. For fifteen weeks straight there was not a day that I was not crazy sick. I would guess on average I threw up 15-20 times per day and was sick the entire day. I got dehydrated way too many times and was getting a little nervous. I would take all my other pregnancies times 100 and it would not compare to this one. I would lay on the couch near death and just watch my three little ones play and feel so bad, I could not be the mother I wanted to be for so long.

The day before I left for Utah I was feeling better. Lucky for me. I still have some hard times during the day, but I have cut back on almost all my meds. I was taking about 11 pills a day and still that sick it was horrible. It got so bad that I would have to take the pills without water so I would not throw up expensive medicine. Poor Andy was a trooper. I am very thankful for all he did and still does.

I did not want to tell anyone because literally the day after finding out was when the sickness hit. I did not want to be all "Debby Downer" when talking about my baby. So we kept it hush hush, until it was obvious. My mom kept coming to my house and it was a complete disaster and I could not hide it any longer so we told the family. And now that I look like I could deliver any day, it is pretty obvious too.

Since Maddox was 3 months old I thought I wanted another one. I pressured Andy hard, and he was not having it. He said when Maddox turns one we could think about it. Well by the time Maddox turned one I decided we should probably wait a while longer. We decided that we should wait till he was 18 months and go from there, but we were thinking more like 2 or older. These kids are great, but 4 so close would just be interesting let's say. So we decided to wait. But, we apparently had no say in it, because I was already pregnant.

I took an old pregnancy test one morning due to some symptoms but hoping it was just coincidence. It was negative and I hopped in the shower. When I got out and was throwing something away I looked at the test and noticed literally the faintest line in America. I was sure that it was negative. For sure. But still a little freaked out. I looked at the box and it was an old dollar store test that expired in 2006.

I ran downstairs and was convinced by my SIL to go to Walgreen's and buy a test. I trekked all three little ones in holding hands ran to the back where the pregnancy tests were and bought the most expensive one, because in my mind that one would be negative, because it must know what it is doing. I got home and took the test and it was positive before I could even get a handle on what was going on. I was in shock and sad. When the first one was negative or so I thought, I was so relived and realized Andy and I had made the right decision. What was this all about?

I called Andy and said, guess who is pregnant, he named seriously everyone we knew and then was silent. I said me and he said whatever. I have got to go. I had to convince him by breaking down in tears. That did it and he was comforting.

Anyway, so here I am huge and pregnant and the section is scheduled for September 15th. Should be fun. It is weird, because although this baby has made me so sick and been really hard on me, I am so excited to meet him or her. I would not want it any other way. I am honored to be their mother. What a blessing. And of course I can say this a little easier now because I am not sick anymore.

Here are some things I was thinking when I found out I was pregnant.

• I will have a 7 year old, 2-2 year olds, and 1-1year old and a newborn baby.
  


• I have been pregnant in 2005, 2006, 2007 and 2008
  


• This is my 6th pregnancy
  


• I will have had 4 babies in 2 years
  


• There will be 4 babies 2 years and younger in my home
  


• I will have to keep them all quiet in Sacrament Meeting
  


• Having a baby less than 13 months after the twins was one of those stories you hear when talking with your friends at enrichment, and I now I have gone and trumped my self
  


• As if I don’t hear, you’ve got your hands full, enough-now I fully agree I DO have my hands full
  


• Can’t wait to see the looks and hear the gasps when we are out and about now
  


• I will have been pregnant in my 27th, 28th, 29th, 30th and 31st years of life
  


• What will people we love think? They see how crazy it can be already with just four!
  


• 3 c-sections in less than three years cannot be good
  


• What am I going to do?
  


• How can I have been trying for 4 years with no luck and now have two unplanned pregnancies?
  


• I will have FOUR kids TWO and under for 3 months!
  


• I have always wanted a saphire in my mothers ring someday:)
  


• Again, how can I not be anything less than grateful for another special child to call my own
  

I really can honestly say though, we are excited and cannot wait to hold our new little baby in our arms and love and cherish everyday of our lives. I am grateful yet once again that we will have another baby to make our family the family I have always wanted. I know this is part of the "plan" and I know we could not be any happier.

A little side note, on Friday we had an ultrasound and we held back and did not find out what we are having. Probably because I will have another scan in 3 weeks. However, Andy is positive he saw a "boy part". We will never tell her of this if it is a girl:)!

***Last night Andy and I were looking at old ultrasound pictures of our first four and now he says what he saw that he thought was the "boy part" looks nothing like our boys parts...so who knows!